Fired up

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Now playing: Kaskade with Dan Black & Dada Life - Ice

I came back for 2 weeks, and now I'm back in Penang after 2 weeks. Is time teleporting itself? I swear I didn't even realize the days passing. And no, it wasn't because I was buried under a mountainous pile of homework..I was obviously too busy drinking, then.. 8 out of 14 days, ya'll!

I can still remember what I did on 31st December 2010. I slept the annoyingly loud fireworks and pathetic cries of my scared-to-death puppy off. and I didn't go to church for vigil..Ouch.

The holidays weren't so bad :)
Like I mentioned, earlier, I drank enough to cause permanent liver damage to myself. Insane, plausibly fatal combinations of durian, wine, vodka, cognac, brandy, beer, scotch, Baileys [offuckingcourse]. There might have also been peanut butter somewhere there, the exact location of which shall remain undisclosed..

This is how my liver looks now. The colour red symbolizes my pretty bottle of Absolut Raspberri...

Went to Langkawi for a day and a half too. It was...ridiculously boring. No beach, no beer, no sands, no FUN. Thus marked the f-bombs dropped by my sister and Aron. :D I do have to admit though, the Langkawi Sky Bridge has a beautiful view. My kind of view. Friendly advice : Never go to Langkawi when Aunt Flow rolls her ass around to cockblock you. Okay, so there was no cockblocking per se, but still.. Screw you, periods. The steps were terrible :\




SEE! :)

And now a momentary interruption to bring you the awesome people who made life awesome, this past few weeks, now, and forever.

OFC, we sang terribly depressing songs and whined and whinged. That was totally subverted and ass-kicked by an awesome rendition of Cartoon Heroes, though. Totally worth it!

Jo's dangerous black book. Okay, so I might have added "dangerous" in a feeble attempt to make everyone think that we're, you know, so badass.

AND WE CANDIED THEM BACON LIKE MOFOS~

Our lovely bonding session captured. Yum

I met Sonia in church :) Sadly, I couldn't meet up with my darling Americanasianaustralian, Anna and Miss Badass Andrina D: They need Rapid Ipoh, man. They got me...this :) I'll take a proper picture one day. I LOVE IT.


And Shannon visited me too! Bonding sessions through empty hours of doing nothing remotely fun...They are a must, because I love this girl right here :D


AND, meet my two new canine homies.

Tamara and Dexter. Dexter looks a lot like Chelsea, but Daddy gave him away :(

So..have a random picture of a fake fruit..


and last but not least, since I'm still not over Christmas...

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year, people :)

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Now playing: Adele - Melt My Heart to Stone [Live at WTMD]

Dude, don't turn me into a sap.I'm not usually like this. I have a spine ._.

Any semblance of normalcy.

Air made of bricks.

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Now playing: Adele - Melt My Heart to Stone [Live at WTMD]

I attended my first GP lesson a few days ago. Unsurprisingly, I loved the lecturer, mostly because she seems so completely resolute in her love for teaching, her love for writing and also because she's a serious user of words like "Bastardization".

SCORE!

Unsurprisingly enough though, I wasn't very content when it came to actually putting what I learnt that day into practice. It took me 4 tries to get the hang of inductive and deductive writing. I kid you not, AT ALL. I admit, I'm blowing this out of proportion but REALLY, self? Honestly?

I suppose I can explain it without worries. Flow towards a conclusion, flows down from a premise etc.

But for the life of me, I can't write. I can't write only having "formal writing lingo" floating through my head. I become so..unfathomably caged up by my own worries about what's necessarily "right" or and that fear of doing it "wrong"

Geez, woman. It's just writing, and it's only your first class.

I told myself that when I walked out of class, all depressed and vexed. The lecturer seemed so genuinely nice though, she seemed so reassuring. That, I need. What I don't need is such technicalities in writing.

I do, however, look forward to class next week. Even if I do expect another blogpost like this next week :(

It really has been a while, hasn't it? Give me one word, and I'll write you thousands. Give me nothing and I would only have one word: WHAT?

Bumble.

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Now playing: Ryan Adams - Dirty Rain

Give me something I want out of impulse. I'm tired of waiting. Are you hearing me, universe? I want to be happy. I haven't been happy in a while, so don't keep me hanging on a fine, loose thread. Don't make me run in circles, trying to catch every single, hazy cloud of happiness that you keep dangling above me.

Do you hear me? When is it going to be my turn to be happy? How long do I wait for people and wait on people like this?

It makes me so..genuinely angry to give up something that would make me even remotely happy.

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Now playing: Florence + The Machine - Landscape

It hits me a week before, but the momentum only hits me a day before. Hmm.

I've been awesome to a lot of people except myself this past few weeks. A stop must be issued because I can't, I can't be too hard on myself. I could've helped, but it was the realization that you'd do nothing but push my help away that stopped me. Don't be upset with me now.

Here's to a cease and desist order, issued to me, by me, to stop being so..subservient to people who don't need, or deserve it.

Nyeheheheheh