This is only going to deepen my feelings about being a terrible friend while simultaneously making me more terrible as a friend, but, NO.
I've never said this out loud, and I think partly due to the fact that I'm too scared to lose things. Or lose, for that matter. But yeah, I mean NO.
No one knows how dead serious I am about untagging, and deleting, blocking, unfollowing. I promised myself I didn't want any form of....connection with people, not in this way. By people I mean insider-outsiders. Screaming wallpaper. Noisy background people I faked liking.
There's something holding me back from doing it. Guilt? Hell, what do I need to feel guilty about? It's my call to not have any connection with anyone, no? I haven't done anything wrong.
I'll wait and see how far this strange, ambiguous hate I feel for humanity progresses. I'm too egoistic for my own good, honestly.
Maybe that's it. An ego too big and fragile to handle..
I'm like a hot-air balloon.
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